I started fall semester today. I am taking Biology 1108 with lab, Chemistry 1212 with lab, Calculus, and a Yoga PE class for good measure :). I must confess, I have been really stressed leading up to this semester. I have been afraid the classes are going to be too hard and I am not going to be able to handle the workload on top of my non-college responsibilities. This morning after my first two classes I felt very overwhelmed. This will be my toughest semester yet and will require discipline and motivation to stay caught up with the large amounts of new material. It won't be easy and I already tend to put a lot of pressure on myself to get A's in all my classes. I know it isn't healthy to be so worried and stressed all the time.
I was feeling down, but through a series of circumstances and well timed conversations today, I realized that I don't have to prove myself anymore. I already have. I have successfully completed 3 full semesters + one summer semester with good grades, and I graduate with my AS in December. Then I hopefully only have 2 more years until I earn my Bachelors. I have a ways to go but I have already come so far.
I have a dream of becoming a nutritionist and helping people become well. Going to school was required to achieve my dream, and I found out that I love it! I enjoy learning and new worlds have opened up to me as I have learned about writing, history, ecology, foreign languages, chemistry and biology, and so much more. I am thankful for this experience.
The study load will be the hardest it has ever been, but that is to be expected with more advanced classes. I am thankful for the challenge and the opportunity to learn new things that I know I will continue to use far into the future. Well, I don't know how I will use calculus in the future. I just consider that class a necessary evil.
I wanted to share my revelation and share about my new desire to look at school differently. Not something to conquer trying prove my worth, but something to enjoy because it furthers my love of learning and helps me get to my ultimate dream of nutrition counseling.
Also, I wanted to tell you about a person that has been a major support and encouragement in my life. My Aunt Joy. She is fun and witty and smart and a pleasure to be around. She doesn't live close, so I don't get to see her very often. But she is truly an incredible woman of God and I deeply respect and admire her.
I came home from a long day at school today to a big package she sent. It contained 2 13 qt stainless steel bowls, 2 20 qt. stainless steel bowls, gel food coloring, and a set of pads (for writing down my dreams :)). She explained in the included note that she got the idea when she read the post about my freezer cooking. The recap post where I mentioned that not having enough large bowls really slowed down the cooking process. I have been wanting a good size stainless steel bowl for a long time now and this was such a blessing. Also, not pictured, she got me a mat that I can use for rolling out fondant for my cakes! It was like Christmas when I came home today :).
Today the Lord blessed me in so many ways and coming home to this surprise was like icing on the cake! Thank you Aunt Joy!
awwww Aunt Joy!!! <3
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